49 WAKING The first conscious thought is not to think: Avoid anticipation, what is to come May be the void or the long-awaited voice, Not the words that are found But the singing countso The theme, of course, is not an accident. Already, you are committed. Do not deceive yourself That what you may decide Is your decision of the day; Remember its ancestry Stubborn in the blood and brain -- The image of the secret self Suffering, above all things, Its own obscurity^ When the politician boasted How he had made two hundred speeches, "No, Tom," his wife declared, "You made the same speech two hundred times.' So are we all Making the same speech over and over againo And now I hear the first birds Spasmodic and repetitive --I know I shall repeat myselfo